Atheism: In 1955, C.S. Lewis published Surprised by Joy about his accidental discovery of joy. In reflecting on his time as an atheist, he wrote, “I was, at this time, living as so many Atheists or Anti-theists, in a world of contradictions. I maintained that God did not exist. I was also very angry with God for not existing. I was equally angry with Him for creating a world.”
Contradictions: Many of us, even though we are Christians, still feel like we are living in a world of contradictions. We may believe God and His promises, but we still wrestle with doubt when it seems like our circumstances do not line up with what we believe. In Psalm 79, Asaph, who knows God’s great promises to His people, wonders, “We have become a taunt to our neighbors, mocked and derided by those around us. How long, O Lord? Will you be angry forever?” 
Faith: There is a difference, however, between the doubt of atheism and the doubt of faith. Doubting without faith trusts in circumstances more than promises; doubting with faith trusts in promises more than circumstances. It is not sinful to ask, “How long, O Lord?” This kind of doubt is rooted in a belief that trusts God and His Word and, then, looks at life and asks, “I do believe God and His promises, but I do not understand how my circumstances right now are lining up with those promises.” This is an honest and authentic questioning that comes from not being able to make sense of things. This type of doubt is a symptom of believing God, not rejecting Him.
Prayer: Lord, We live in a world that is full of circumstances that are confusing in light of your promises. Yet we recognize that we have such little information to interpret our lives. Therefore, we believe your promises more than our circumstances, even as we honestly ask, “How long, O Lord?” May we approach you as children in faith, knowing that you are good and do good. Be patient with us in our doubting for we are frail and prone to wander. Remind us that Jesus died to cover our doubts and the Spirit lives within us to transform our doubts. For we are saved by the blood of Jesus, not by our (im)perfect faith. Amen.
 Psalm 79:4 – 79:5 ESV